The parcel came yesterday evening. It was not a surprise or anything. I had pestered him to death to send it to me. Still i was so happy when the courier people called me. Then on the way from work i collected it and smiled throughout my journey home. I couldn't wait and i opened it during the walk from the bus stop to my home(2 mins), even though i knew exactly what it had.

The book and the DVD.
The book i got him to send me with methods ranging from begging to threatening serious body harm. (True story)
The DVD, which had films of The Heath Ledger, our favorite actor.
And then the cover, where he had written my address in good handwriting. (It is good, don't argue!). I was seeing his writing for the first time other than in YM doodles. :)
And also, as he put it, loads and loads of love. :)

And he signed it Nemo. :)
What more would Dory want?
:)

PS: I am still smiling
PPS: I am going to love this book even if this turns out to be the biggest bore since huge vegetarian dinosaurs.

Oh, Did i mentioned that Rudra Mishra is awe-quite a bit-some?
And if i talked once more about this, he is going fly down here and throttle me to silence.
Still :)

Anthropology in Twitter- Gossiping.  

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Being in twitter is like being part any living community. Like a college. Or a colony. There are geeks, jocks, damsels, friendly ones, girls whom everyone likes, goodfornothings, observers, psychos, funny ones, weirdos.. just about everyone. So like every community, there are stories, gossips, random meetings, fallout's, crushes, love, hitting on girls, and guys, avoiding, friendships, new and old, sisterhood and brotherhoods, ogling, stalking... Just like any community.

I always thought twitter gossips were about celeb-tweeps . Well, i didn't knew any better. So Indian twitters mostly have gangs and cults which are interconnected. So you are friends with many, who knows other people, who knows someone else... well, no explaining needed. Exactly like how the story of Mr.Mishra's son and Mr.Yadav's daughter spotted in ice cream shop spreads.
I don't know how much of an apt candidate i am. I tweet less than normal, my twitter friendships are very less, but those i have are strong and not easily swayed. They keep me in the loop.


So, my experiments in gossips in twitter-

Example-1
Me(in IM)- This ma***ne guy in twitter is spamming my pages!
AS- Mine too.
Me-Why is he spamming the timeline!! :O And with absolutely pointless stuff!
AS- Yup. True.
Me- I am unfollowing him. U do too
AS- na. I want to observe him. He tweets so much and revealing so less. I am curious.
Me- Besto with that. I am done with him.
*after some days*
Me-Whats with that psycho you were following? Any clues?
AS- Today i asked him what he is up to. Didn't went well.
Me-I saw. thats why i asked.

Example2
Me- So you and i follow only @SK mutually.
RK- Yeah.
Me- You know @SZ?
RK- I know, but i dont follow him.
Me- @PL? She is my best pal.
RK- Na. i used to, not now.
Me-CB?
RK-No, not good tweets!
Me-Dont say that! I am very close to him!!
RK-OK, You know @M from chennai?
Me- Na. Tell me. Should i know?

Example 3
Me- Whats with @*** and @* ??
FK- They are dating.
Me-Oooh! in twitter? thats so cute!
FK- Yeah.. we get to read all the PDA!!

Example 4-
GH- @SZ and @SD have known each other for long. I think they are going to meet in person
Me- Ah,happy endings!
*2 months later*
Me to @SZ- What happened to you and @SD?
SZ- It wasnt working out. We broke up.
Me- What happened?

Example 5
Me- These negative gossips are turning my head!
PL- Dont mind it babes.
Me- But so much is going on.. whom to believe.
PL- Stay cool love :)

Sounds familiar? Yup, the same stuff Auntyjee's talk over tea party. We talk it with a coffee and a computer. And we say "ewww" to gossips. :P
Add your own gossips if you want to. Or mail them to me!

PS-The conversations are real. Though the names have been changed to protect privacy. And my life. :P

Boo!!  

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This is what is written on the incognito window of google chrome.

You've gone incognito.
Pages you view in this window won't appear in your browser history or search history,
and they won't leave other traces, like cookies, on your computer after you close the incognito window. Any files you
download or bookmarks you create will be preserved, however.
Going incognito doesn't affect the behavior of other people, servers, or software.
Be wary of:
  • Websites that collect or share information about you
  • Internet service providers or employers that track the pages you visit
  • Malicious software that tracks your keystrokes in exchange for free smileys
  • Surveillance by secret agents
  • People standing behind you
The last one simply cracked me up =))

Disclaimer-This does not in any case goes on to prove that i use incognito window for terrorist activities. Or any other activities. I am just observant, thats all :) This also does not mean i hate chrome. Infact i only use chrome. And to point out, its not because of the incognito.

~*~December Mist~*~  

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December is here. Its my second favorite month of the year. January only beats it because of having the privilege of being my birthday month. Still December is so divine naa. Why?

In Kerala December-January is the winter. And as much as i love my place, i miss the cold and the dew and to be very silly, the snow flakes. The winter temperature here is around 20-22 'C, so no hope of anything remotely winter-y. Still its cold and somehow serene. And romantic. I feel winters are the most romantic season. People go on and on about spring and autumn, but i am in love with winter. And monsoon. But lets go with winter now, as December is here.

In my childhood days Dad got a transfer to a hill station. First we all were very sad as he had to stay away from us, and i was already at boarding and this left mom alone with Aqui. Then during the Christmas vacation, as we all were free and Dad wasn't, we went to stay with him. And those days are more alive in my mind than the last Christmas. It was foggy, and there was slight snowing, cold beyond bearable, i slept under a heap of blankets hugging mom, and there were sweaters and heaters and campfires and books and card games by campfires... It was like i slept and lived in a dream. I used to go walking in the morning(and i never walk usually) to feel the mist and the chill on my face, the dewdrops on my hands, the uncertainty of not knowing what lies before 3 steps and the sudden happiness when someone i know just mysteriously steps out in front of me through snow.. it was my best holiday ever. And i love December for it.


Speaking of holidays, December holidays are a favorite of mine. Though onam is awesome and all, i love Christmas too. Even though mom is religious, we were brought up to accept and celebrate Christmas. And it was a break of 10 days from my god-awful boarding school and it was in my favorite season and there are cakes!! I absolutely love cakes :D ! I can write a blog post about cakes.. Hmmm.. pieces of heaven i call them :) So every Christmas, there are so many many of them. We buy a lot, we gift a lot, we get a lot, we eat a lot... and i gain a lot (of weight). :P This years Christmas is going to be extra special as i am making the cake! And remove that frown from your face guys, i bake awesome cakes :) And i will post a pic for you all!!


Then there are the cards. Ah.. I really miss Christmas card craze!! Is it me or the cards are like totally out now?? During my college days, i used to make a list on December first week-(I am not an orderly person, so a list is like my ultimate devotion) -of people i want to send card to, of people i have to, of people i should, and i used to spend all my pocket money on those. Then i would get an unexpected card from someone and i would go "damn,what will i do for money now" and grudgingly shop for them.. And there were these cute little cards our girl gang used to distribute amongst us. They were so small and so cute, with little cute messages.. i miss those girls and the cute cards. I have a huge box of cards i received during college time and many many of those are Christmas-new year ones :) This is one thing i don't like about the virtual world creeping upon us. Even with songs and animation and all, e-cards don't make me feel anything. Its not personal. It doesn't have little PS and a funny comment. It doesn't have scrawled price tag. And it doesn't have that feeling of your heart jumping when you open it. [And is it again me or did card prices like shot up in recent years? Now a days i walk in to a hallmark shop and freeze seeing the prices.] Send me card!! Its like angels in little covers!

Then December holds the birthday of the two important girls in my life. Mom and Di. So this month really breaks my bank. But i love dispensing joy, so, i don't really care. Those two evil, devilish and incomparably awesome girls gets the best. I don't really care.

The point is... through life's rushes and races, stop a moment to look at the world around you and me. And appreciate little gifts of life. Sometimes you will be amazed by the kindness nature shows us.

Adopting two lines from Lenka's The show..

It’s a joke nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show..

HELP!!  

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STRUCK DOWN BY SERIOUS BLOGGER'S BLOCK.

:(

(Me searching Internet for "ideas for blogging" and "blog memes" are a good indication na.)

SO drop in any ideas i might use. :)
Danks!

Insecurities  

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I am this brave, i-don't-give-a-shit-about-what-the-world-thinks kinda girl (or i pretend to be so most of the time) but i do have more insecurities than I would like to admit. Especially when it concerns stuff i love. And the stuff i did with great care. And I am talking about my blog.

*Taking off the brave mask*
I have already written somewhere that I really really wanted to have a blog and i love this one like crazy and am very proud and emotionally attached to it than what is considered normal :P All people who have communicated with me should know it, blog related sentence is included in the first 10. And my friends are bored of my random shouts "why you people never read my blog is beyond me" or "this is SO going in my blog"(Barney Stinson, acknowledged) or " You know what i wrote about you in my blog, read it! HA!". Yup, i am obsessed about my blog.

So this brings to the insecurity part. I was 75th in the indiblogger rank list and suddenly it dropped to 57. May be the new bloggers around the block are all awesome, i thought. And later google PRchecker showed my PR had dropped too. (Here i don't want to remember this embarrassing fact that i once thought PR of 1 was the best and 10 was the worst, you know, like a countdown).
So this cant be good naa. I mean, either i am writing crap or i am writing bullshit. there is simply no other option. Am i that bad and should i go on are questions that do plague me. I do love this blog and i do thank all you people who reads through my * apparently* not so good literature. Thanks guys! Hugs!! I really appreciate it!


PS- Emo me is really depressing, rudeboy will swear on that. So, i-dont-give-a-shit mask back on and who cares about google? and indiblogger ranks. Am awesome. :P

The temporary madness called Love.  

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"Oh you are getting married."


"Well, not now, but eventually. They just found the girl. There are millions of stuff now na?"

"Oh. Good. Very good. Good for you. Awesome. Good. Really. Bye"

She disconnected the phone to the spluttering sounds He was making.

Well, that was unexpected, she thought. Not entirely, they always knew this. That what they had would never work out. There were just too many hurdles to jump.

It was just sex. Always. Good sex, mind you. Mind blowing. She tried to concentrate on that. The cuddling and the I-love-yous were all part of sex. The knowing smiles, the inside jokes, the silly fights, the bigger and easier make ups, it was all sex. Yes. It was.

She felt like hearing songs. Sad ones. They were more enjoyable. Thats why. Not because they make her sad. Not at all. Soft music is good for ears.

They were never friends in the true sense of the word. They both had different circles. Rather strong ones too. He had far too many female friends, she thought. She hated every single one of them. And told him so too. It was another joke. The acting jealous joke. She was acting. Yes. She was.

She drank another sip from the tea cup. The flavor was not registering with her. He never drank tea or coffee or any beverages. It was always juices when they went out. She always found it rather boyish. And that somehow made her smile now.

How it all began? They were both very busy, very career minded, living life to the fullest individuals. When they met, they both knew they liked each other and they were lonely and love-deprived. They knew they had immense potential together, they could bridge the emptiness that was was in their hearts and nothing serious or long term will never come off it. two states, to cultures, too families that will never meet and mingle. It was just oil and water.
So it was all an act from beginning. The flirting, the in-love talks, the hugs that lingered, prolonged handshakes.. Then on a mutual whim they decided that they were going to be lovers. In every sense. Without love or commitment. Anyone can get out anytime. Without hard feelings. And something like that.
It was awesome. The IMs in office hours and long phone calls to midnight, later parties and rented hotel rooms. It was simply awesome. There were no friction as they brushed conflicts aside. This was not forever. They were drinking on the ecstasy of love and togetherness. Since years she felt like a complete person. And that brought out the smiles. Wicked ones. Random ones. The one when she was collecting water from the cooler. The one when she saw his childhood photo. The one when she was dreaming while in an office meeting. She was happy.

Ah this wont do. Drat it. Sunday too. No work to get lost in. She let out a string of curses and wondered why she never thought of a mini bar at home.

The phone buzzed with new message. It was him.
"Are you ok?" it said. This made her smile. He was forever caring.

"Yeah. I am ok. :)"
She pushed the send button and then the tears started.

The Seven Deadly Sins. I am going to enjoy my trip to Hell.  

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I always knew there were 7 sins and greed, lust, pride etc are some of them, but I never spared it much brain space. Today, I was sooo bored,(Blame on friends who go on camping trips to dangerous places in stormy season[i wont even cry if you die, i will simply say "i told you so"] and others who have a life offline)I had to blog something and nothing is happening to me in the damn sickbed(or deathbed because boredom will soon kill me).

So, I looked up the 7 sins. My, oh my, i am doomed. You see, i always thought that i am basically a good person. I am not perfect. I can be rather annoying, selfish, irritating, cunning, lying to save my ass, plotting when the situation demands it (jeez i don't need the list, do i?), but in my heart, I never wished anyone ill luck (well, only those who deserves it. :| ). And you know, I always had this feeling that I am OK, i am even good, i help strangers, i tend sick animals, i love the silly world for crying out loud. How bad i can be? And i was happy with my goodness. Until i saw the list. :|

THE LIST OF SEVEN SINS! or cardinal sins or capital vices, whatever!

1.Pride is excessive belief in one's own abilities, that interferes with the individual's recognition of the grace of God. It has been called the sin from which all others arise. Pride is also known as Vanity.
Now, why people say "Don't you have a little pride miss?" I am not vane, but I do feel happy when my judgments turn out to be right. Now, god is not going to come down and take the blunt when it goes wrong na? So why reserve him the credits?

2.Envy is the desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation.
This I am proud to say i don't have. Except when it is harmless. Not serious. For Fun. Wishful thinking you know? Damn it! :|

3.Gluttony is an inordinate desire to consume more than that which one requires.
Guilty as charged. No comments. Except that its not fair!! Well, someone should have made a list of what one requires. :|

4.Lust is an inordinate craving for the pleasures of the body.
How was the mankind to procreate without this? We cant all wait for St. Gabriel to descend and Holy Spirit to get us pregnant na? What would all the guys do then? Go out of business? :D (Me thinks that story is freaking scary. I used to think as a kid what i would do if Gabriel came to me. I cant say i want to wait till i am a bit older na? This is holy business we are talking! Childhood me was a freak if u ask me!)
Coming back to context- Guilty. ;)

5.Anger is manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury. It is also known as Wrath.
I get angry easily. My adrenaline bottle's cap is loose. On merest provocation, like not coming on time(please forget i am always late. Ah, we'll come to sloth later) or a seriously wicked villain in a movie triggers it. I will be grinding my tooth to powder faster than u can say aha! Small consolation- i come down faster! Note the point your Honour!

6.Greed is the desire for material wealth or gain, ignoring the realm of the spiritual. It is also called Avarice or Covetousness.
All nice names. You know what would be nicer? If someone would buy us nice dress and gadgets for free. If Sony Ericsson started giving out stuff. And food too, all free. Greed or whatever they mean by the term is only practical in a socialistic utopia and we all know how USSR was a huge success! So, i am guilty but i don't feel so, and God is so unfair in this!! He can conjure stuff na? :-O

7.Sloth is the avoidance of physical or spiritual work.
Famous last words. Chuck it! :P


PS-Posting this on children's day is not bad form eh? Posting this on World Diabetes Day sounded cool. The overindulgence and all that you know. :P

PS2- So what you say about me doing the 10 commandments?? No na? I guessed so :P

For all my life, since childhood, i had been ridiculously healthy.

When other children cried about sick leaves, i prayed for one, to no avail. When my brother who was a very sick boy took month after month away from the boarding, i was mighty jealous of him(He is rather healthy and muscle-y now days. As much as i love him, the world is not fair guys!sigh!). So my point is I was the healthy child. The one who never went down, the one for whom they never had to wake up at midnight for, the one who never got admitted in a hospital(except for eating too much bournvita one day :|). The perfect baby. Later the perfect one went on to be hmm, lets say rather on the heavy side. So what, i was still healthy. And through college too i was praying to get sick even though i bunked class to my heart's content there. Still healthy as a horse. Lets say i was too much confident.

So, 2 weeks ago, after a long trip and all, i went to work. On coming back, i slept for 2 hours and when i woke up, viola, fever!! I cant say i was depressed. I slept on it, took the next day off for fun(it was saturday and i don't like the fact that i work on saturdays) and by saturday evening things started to slip off my control. I might be lazy, but i loved my job and wanted no holidays these days as it would reflect badly on me and my paycheck. So i didn't wanted this fever.
For someone who wanted to lie down with a blankie and get pampered a lot throughout her teen life, i was not enjoying it when served in the silver platter. More like the damn fever was not letting me. The thing that annoyed me most would be the appetite. For a fatso with a decent appetite whatever happened, the fever killed it. I was weary of food and one day, for flavour, i made maggi noodles, as soup(Don't scold me please), nd its absolutely accurate in saying that i wont be eating maggi for a long long long time, may be never. Maggi did one thing though. It started the vomiting. From then, whatever goes in, comes out the same way. Thus i got pretty tired and dizzy and got more pampered. By this time my uncle(who is a doc too) got concerned as he see H1N1 etc daily and wanted me to undergo checkups and all. In a week, a severely malnourished, but bored and happy-to-go-to-work-finally me went out to my hospital. I was double happy. Finally the virus had managed to reduce my weight which i hadn't succeeded with :) And let me tell you, after all these troubles, if the virus hadn't managed that, i would have hunt every single one of them and roasted them in hell fire. Well, i was happy.

Now let me tell you the ill-effects of working in a hospital as a young doc.
1. you don't have many patients, so you have loads of free time.
2. As seniors wont be friends to you, you start befriending the young people in lab and x-rays, which is very close to my room in case of my hospital.
3. The lab tests are free.

All these factors culminate in what happened next.
One fine afternoon, a very bored me went to Lab and asked them to do a s.bilirubin after observing the obvious :| . I was looking very energetic and good, they scoffed at my request at first. But boss is boss[;)] so they took a criminal amount of blood from my veins and after a million calls in every 3 seconds(i love intercoms :D) they finally told me the value. Damn! Jaundice this time. :| Though they appreciated my thinking prowess and energy, they fact remained that i was sick again. When i called home with this news, all hell broke loose. Hell here is a literal translation of Mom. Mom just freaked out.
And so, guys,(if anyone is still reading this :P) the smalltown_girl is in sickbed now. And jaundice makes fever look like a picnic. Because now i am alright and has no symptoms externally, am literally tied down to bed, given absolute shit items as food when i am quite famished and craves nice food. Oh and am not allowed to move and all :| DAMN!
And what next? No God.. No! I think i was never meant to be the sick one. I just don't have the mettle for it. And all these years god was right. I am too weak to be sick!

PS: Totally unrelated fact- Rocky is sick too, a thorn in his paw it seems. Getting better faster than me :)

And that almost summarizes it! Almost.  

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:) I Love this image.


PS: if anyone has any copyright issues with this, say so. I will remove it. Please don't sue me.. Can't you see the innocence in my eyes? :D