Monday, November 26, 2012

Bold what’s true about you


You just learned a bit about me:

I am a cuddler.
I am a morning person.
I am an only child.
I am currently in my pajamas.
I am currently pregnant.
I am left handed.
I am a little shy around the opposite gender at first.
I bite my nails.
I can be paranoid at times.
I enjoy country music.
I enjoy smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a car.
I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a pet.
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl.
I have all my grandparents.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have or had broken a bone.
I have caller I.D. on my phone.
I have bathed someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year. 
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
I have had major/minor surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have mood swings.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have rejected someone before.
I like the taste of blood.
I love Michael Jackson. like****
I love sleeping.
I love to shop.
I own 100 CDs or more.
I own and use a library card.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time. 
I sleep a lot during the day.
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I am currently wearing socks.
I am tired.
I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.
I consume at least one alcoholic drink every month.

I have/had:

Graduated high school.
Smoked cigarettes.
Ridden every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a concert.
Helped someone.
Spun turn tables.
Watched four movies in one night.
Been broken up with.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Skipped school.
Gotten in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Been in a mental hospital. 
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Fired a gun.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Attempted suicide.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Used a colouring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Had more than 5 online conversations going at once.
Had a hamster.
Dyed your hair.
Had something pierced.
Gotten straight A’s.
Your parents sent you to a shrink.
Been handcuffed.


My hair is naturally the color:

Light brown
Medium brown
Dark brown
Blonde
Black
Dirty blonde
Strawberry blonde/Ginger
Multicoloured


My eyes are:

Brown
Blue/Grey
Green
Hazel
Light brown
A combination of things

I am:

Male
Female
Other


People sometimes label me as:

Slut
Girly
Ugly
Nerd
Other


Some of my biggest fears are:

Spiders/other insects
Dying
Doctor/Dentist appointments
Hospitals
Needles
Disease
Being alone in the dark
Heights
Small spaces
Oceans/large bodies of water
Holes
Large animals
Small animals
Open spaces
Lightning


I have:

A friend with benefits
A laptop in my room 
A television in my room
Good grades
My own car
Married parents

Friday, October 05, 2012

....

Sometimes you go on living life like its a roller coaster, and you are so frikking happy to be on this ride, even though you don't know how long it is going to last or how steady your feet will be at the end of it.

You look at your side and see your co-rider. This is a stranger and not your oldest and trustiest friend. You have shared the ride and sat along with them and laughed and hooted, but you are not sure as soon as the end comes, they will just jump off the wagon and go or if they will lend you a helping hand to steady your step.

And towards the end you realize all these, or start thinking of all these, and the fun of the ride is replaced with this dark cold dread, and you don't know what to do with it.

The uncertainty sometimes paralyses you. Makes you doubt life. And friends. And if these people are friends.

What to do? To get on the ride or watch on the sidelines?
Question.

Wednesday, August 08, 2012

In Love..

With this song..

And Rihanna. Spirited woman, though i think she has masochistic tendencies, which is not bad for some people, but not for me. [I mean, Chris Brown? Seriously?]

Friday, July 20, 2012

Apna Sapna Money Money

Last night I had this horrible dream.
I the dream, I was in my own family, but instead of a brother, I had a brother and a sister. In the dream, we are very rich with big fortune. So, with the fortune, mom gave her share to my brother and dad gave his' to my sister. And I was feeling a lot jealous and sorry for myself. I was angry at my parents and not fond of my bro.
Then I woke up. Upset.
Then I realised that how fortunate I am that I have a really loving family and a very much loved brother and absolutely ZERO FORTUNE.

True story.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Boy Crush

Sadly, it has got nothing to do with the impending wedding or the fiance.
Its this Boy.


These are the almost bad ones.
Google Harry Styles and be amazed at the good ones.

Yes, he is legal. Barely.
Though no need to worry.
Its more maternal than eternal.
And its more antics, nature and the personality than the pop star.
Its really Old Lady Love.
And I am hooked.

Oh.
Their music is nice too. Check One Direction.
Its Pathetic to like Teen pop when you are near the age that shall not be named.
But, screw norms, i like teen pop!
This would be my favorite song.
Enjoy!

Adios!

Thursday, April 05, 2012

Time Of My Life

So, today I wore a saari. What's the big deal huh? Except that I believe it's a pretty dress disguised as a trap for efficient women, designed by a male chauvinist just for the purpose of torturing us. But it's pretty and I love the feeling while I wear it. I feel like a woman.
But I never find time to put this on. In between my late wakeup, morning bed-reading, then a rushed morning cleanup and running to the canteen, I never get time to put the aforementioned contraption on.
Then something happened yesterday.
I forgot my mobile charger in office.
Yeah. Can you believe that!
No way to charge my beloved Live. No way to read books. Or play games. Or call anyone. Or text. I agree that androids are at the top of the gadget world, but without a charger, it's like carrying a paper weight.
So morning came.
There she is! Miss.Smalltown-sree, without a gadget. And not knowing what to do in the morning after waking up.
I went stir-crazy.
Then I got up, took a long bath, and put on a SAARI. Took time and patience to look good in that.
And I got to canteen 20 minutes early.
And to work 10 minutes early. And not like my usual 5 minutes late.
Ahha.

Lesson learned: Take out the gadgets from your hand and minds and life, and you'd be surprised at what you have time for.

Real life after lesson : Thought in morning---> I am so going to blog this! In the blogger app on my frikkin amazing android!!
So, yeah.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Yes, there is a big news.
Yes, its what you think it is.
Yes, really.
Yes, i am nervous as hell, i even had IBS.
No, IBS was not easy, the worst days of my life. Thank God its over now.
Yes, i am afraid more every day.
No, nothing is solid fixed, no dates etc.
No, it will not be so far.
Yes, You are invited, of course.

Yes, i hope it will all turn up good too.
*fingers crossed*

Thursday, March 15, 2012

No Bounderies...


Friendship.
The relation that knows fairly no boundaries. 

The girl inside the house is a well protected, well behaved, indulged, loved, baby of the family.
The girl outside lives a hard life. Her parents work at nearby construction site, she plays there with her brother. She is always covered in cement powder and wears shabby cloths. 
They both are from different worlds, like we all were, when we get to a college or school or work place.
It started with shy smiles, showing off their toys and then stepping over the shyness and talking..... {TBH, sounds a bit adult, but it was totally childish and cute}
It was beautiful to watch  across the road from my work place. 
It was like watching a flower bloom or the sun rises. 

[ Reading this with my last post would make me sound kinda crazy with a dual personality to boost. But i was really angry at the bestie, Di, but i love her now and forever and dedicate this post for her. If it was us, i would be the girl outside and she would love me with all the judgement and prejudice.]

Friday, February 03, 2012

The biggest convenience in the world..

Friendship.
Excuse of a relationship.
Best for convenience.
Easiest to drop.

Friendship.
Worst idea ever.
Period.

NB: I was never much of a poet.
So there.

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Stranded

Have you ever craved SO much for a mere 4 Rs that you wanted it more than you ever wanted a million bucks? Even for a short time?

Today i decided to go watch shopping for the fastrack watch my BFF was buying me. I went with my work BF, KP. The deal was, i didn't had any money with me. [sidenote- i don't usually keep cash with me as i am a big ass spender. I would rather carry a card] So i had exactly Rs 0.00 with me to carry me through the shopping and the travelling. She took the bus ticket to the shopping center and i got the watch, (yay!) which is kinda tame, but stylish. Not the point of the post though.
Later the night, we finished shopping, but kinda late, as i am an indecisive jackass. We paid(via card) and by then KP was late for her home. We ran to the bus stop and i watched on as she got on a very timely bus (not a usual thing!). As the bus started rolling, it dawned in my mind that, Here I am, alone in the middle of a city, with absolutely zero cash with me.
Oh. My. God.

I only needed 4 rs to get me to the hostel and i have never ever wanted 4 shining one rupee coins than then, when i felt alone in the midst of a frikking crowd.
Before the crazies began, i started to look for an ATM and i could find none in sight. And finally i asked one shop guy for directions to an ATM and I had passed right by it! (And who in the would would plant a bunch of trees all around an ATM? For gad's sake, it for people to find. Not to play hide and seek with!) And i got the money, got change from a shop and finally got in a bus.
Phew.


Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Endless Love

Some love stories begin beautifully. Hearing them makes you want love so badly that it will hurt. But there are some love stories that are different. It will still hurt you badly.

I was talking to a new patient. [Basic case taking. They share their woes. We pretend to listen while looking for valid points to fill the case sheet.] Old lady, arthritic, very pleasant but a sadness hiding somewhere in her face.

"My husband died 6 months ago. He is a very nice man. He took extremely good care of me. He would urge me to go out every day and do something very simple like a walk. He was not so healthy, but he would still come to give me company." She smiled wistfully.
"On that day, like usual, he made me a cup of coffee. He had bought me a walking machine, treadmill. I said i am not walking, and he said he will instead of me. He walked for a few minutes. And usually after walks he would lie down for a few minutes to rest. Before lying down, he asked me to drink the coffee he bought me. He never woke up. They said it was cardiac arrest." By this time, her words were choked up and her tears were streaming down her face. And mine were brimming with tears too.

This is what i said earlier.
Some love stories begin so beautifully, it will hurt you. Some love stories end beautifully and it hurts even more. Or do they really end?

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Sacred Science- The Dewarists



The best song i have heard in a long time. This one is extra special as it is based on my homeland, Kerala. The video captures the essence of the traditional aspects of Kerala and the music by the guitarist adds a modern touch to it, and its just 'WOW'.

Tell me how you like it.

Copyrighted by Dewarists and Star World.

Friday, January 06, 2012

New Year? Really?

This is the first time I've not felt the celebratory light of New Year in my life. And i live in a city. That is saying a lot. May be finally i am at the level of maturity that makes you take everything in colorless tone. Literally, old. That is bad. But i think mostly its the fear to grow old while i accomplished so little in the life so far. Peter Pan syndrome. With a little insecurity thrown in for company.

January was the most loved month for me. For all the birthday gifts it bring. Now its my most hated month. And don't blame if i switched off the mobile on the freakishly frightening Jan 25.

And to all young folks, Happy New Year. And to all my folks, I know dear, I know.