Sunday, November 22, 2009

Insecurities

I am this brave, i-don't-give-a-shit-about-what-the-world-thinks kinda girl (or i pretend to be so most of the time) but i do have more insecurities than I would like to admit. Especially when it concerns stuff i love. And the stuff i did with great care. And I am talking about my blog.
*Taking off the brave mask*
I have already written somewhere that I really really wanted to have a blog and i love this one like crazy and am very proud and emotionally attached to it than what is considered normal :P All people who have communicated with me should know it, blog related sentence is included in the first 10. And my friends are bored of my random shouts "why you people never read my blog is beyond me" or "this is SO going in my blog"(Barney Stinson, acknowledged) or " You know what i wrote about you in my blog, read it! HA!". Yup, i am obsessed about my blog.

So this brings to the insecurity part. I was 75th in the indiblogger rank list and suddenly it dropped to 57. May be the new bloggers around the block are all awesome, i thought. And later google PRchecker showed my PR had dropped too. (Here i don't want to remember this embarrassing fact that i once thought PR of 1 was the best and 10 was the worst, you know, like a countdown).
So this cant be good naa. I mean, either i am writing crap or i am writing bullshit. there is simply no other option. Am i that bad and should i go on are questions that do plague me. I do love this blog and i do thank all you people who reads through my * apparently* not so good literature. Thanks guys! Hugs!! I really appreciate it!


PS- Emo me is really depressing, rudeboy will swear on that. So, i-dont-give-a-shit mask back on and who cares about google? and indiblogger ranks. Am awesome. :P

8 comments:

Rudra. said...

Even i love your blog.. :)

Karan said...

Screw google,screw indiblogger rank.
Embrace the readers and the comments :)
Though bloggers and webmasters are really obsessed with PR more than it is worth for. I saw a tee once with one liner "I want to be a PR 10 when I grow up" :P

Gyanban said...

A low need for approval is a good thing.It s like saying I am doing a good job..and I know it - I don't need others to say that I am doing a good job.
keep writing what is true to your heart.

Nikita said...

Ooh don't care about those ranks... we love you and your blog :)

Aditya said...

Yeah! screw the rankings! unless ur at the top.

btw i thought 57 was better than 75.

Psych Babbler said...

Don't go based on the ranks and stuff...(says the person who was disappointed when hers fell too)

I don't know how the whole page rank thingy works...but at the end of the day, as long as you know who your faithful readers are, none of the ranks and followers matters. I'm currently at a page rank of 0 (down from 3) but that's because I changed my domain name...

Rajlakshmi said...

you still are an awesome writer :)
keep writing gal... don't let ranks dishearten you :)

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